In the name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful.
Last night, when I was trying to do hafazan, Mak walked in and sat on the chair silently. She has this habit when she just wants to just check up upon her children. I never get to experience this when I was in the UK. and I missed it a lot.
Mak and Abah have been through quite a lot for the past few years but masyaAllah, I am amazed by their tranquility. I have fears. i have fears quite a lot. But they taught me nothing is worth fearing except Allah. Sometimes you just feel like you’re at a dead end. Clueless of what you should do, what you should decide. To a point where you try seeking love and attention from something else, someone else. You wish you know what you should do. You wish you now what lies on the other side of taqdeer. You want to know everything. However, everything was not yours to know.
“Every fall into love involves the triumph of hope over knowledge”
You will never know what Allah plans for you. But the only option is to trust Him and to work hard to fall in love with Him. Once fallen, it is the triumph of hope over knowledge.
“Tetapi Allah menjadikan kamu cinta kepada keimanan, dan menjadikan iman itu indah dalam hatimu, serta menjadikan kamu benci kepada kekafiran, kefasikan, dan kedurhakaan. Mereka itulah orang-orang yang mengikuti jalan yang lurus.”