“Nun. By the pen and by that which they write. You [Muhammad] are not, by the grace of your lord [Rabb, “Educator”], possessed. Verily, yours is an unfailing reward. And surely you have sublime morals. You will soon see, and they will see, which of you is afflicted with madness.”
Struggling doesn’t imply that one does not have pleasure in experiencing it. It’s like you’re doing a bungee jumping. To take the first jump from the podium will always be the hardest but it requires a leap of faith. And I’m at the brink of taking that leap of faith.